I almost forgot about it but last week marked my fifth year of working as a freelancer. While there are so many things to share about those five years, I figured it’s good time right now to share how it all began. It is also an opportunity for me to reactivate this dormant site and hopefully get into publishing content here in a more regular manner.
Truth be told, the story I will be sharing here is one I’ve already shared before in Medium. But I’m sharing it here while provide some information that I withheld when I first wrote because…what’s there now for me to lose anyway?
“Freelancer” on my mind
The thought of making a career shift from the office desk to my home desk as a freelancer has always lingered in my mind ever since I first come to learn about this concept in the early 2010s. I can’t remember where I first encountered it, but I can say my online interactions with groups such as the Freelance Writers Guild of the Philippines and exploring sites like Freelancer.com did pique my interest quite a bit.
To me, I’ve felt that working from home was an ideal setup I aimed to realize, but not in the immediate future but in the near future of after x number of years, I figured. And with that in mind, I had a plan all thought out. Not properly drawn out, but the plan was there nevertheless.
Building the foundations
Since then, I was beginning to erect the foundations of that possible next career phase. I began seeking writing contributions, both unpaid and, especially, paid ones. I did a complete overhaul of my old blog from a free WordPress site to a domain of my own and a new hosting service to boot so my site could have ads for some additional revenue.
Then in 2015, I made the move to get myself registered with the Bureau of Internal Revenue (BIR) as a part-time freelancer, or as the BIR would classify freelancers, a professional. It was a move originally intended to fulfill the requirements of some publications for freelancers like myself to have official receipts to issue to them. At the same time, I was also thinking about the future that I would find it beneficial for that transition to possible full-time freelancer that I thought I will be making. A future which I thought would happen after a year or more at least.
I wouldn’t have thought that transition would happen sooner than I expected.
I thought I had it all planned out…
I have been working in an office environment for 10 years back in 2015, half of which was spent in the call center environment. So I’ve been through it all, from shifting schedules that could start at an ungodly time to the hellish commute I go through each working day.
I felt that commuting hell especially more when I moved out from the capital city of Manila to the growing suburb of Taytay east of Metro Manila. Most especially, one can feel this hell during Monday mornings when traffic going to the metropolis is more “challenging” than usual. Nevertheless, I lived through and survived it and was something I was getting used to. You have to live through the situation and make your way around it is what I say.
However, even the patience of one of the most patient persons out there has a limit. Thus, I had been on the lookout for a new workplace, ideally in a location easily accessible and/or more commuting options from where I am.
So my original plan had two elements: a short-term one which was to transfer to a more convenient workplace, then medium-term which was to eventually shift to freelance and online work.
Those plans in my mind were conceived at an interesting point in my life, when I felt so restrained and stagnant in where I was. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing but good things to say for that work environment I’ve been part of. But if you are someone who after many years of service, yearns for something beyond what the environment has to offer…I suppose you know what I mean and where this may lead to.
So yeah, I was planning on leaving though I did not have a specified date in mind as it would depend on the status of the job applications I filed. Almost each week, I filed one application after another online, hoping for that opportunity for me to open and start anew, so to speak.
By then, I thought I had it all figured out. Then circumstances say: screw those plans!
Firstly, the farthest I was able to go was a final interview in a couple of applications I did. But unfortunately, the opportunities I was hoping did not come. I don’t wish to speculate on the reasons, most especially since they never disclose it anyway. But I tried still.
What about the call center environment? I don’t have anything bad to say about it and I am thankful that I got to work there where I learned so much in the process. But after almost half of my work life spent in this environment, I felt it was enough experience for me and I don’t see myself going back. After having learned and experienced so much for the last five years, I just felt what I could do deserves a wider playing field so to speak, something the call center environment sadly cannot provide from what I see on my end.
For months, I was on stealth job hunting mode while I was still employed, looking for that elusive break that I need. I wanted to stay at my job as long as I can until that time came. But it came to a point that the mental fatigue and stress that adversely affected my performance which endangered my tenure in the company.
Eventually, I had to make an important decision. And it was a heartbreaking one. After five years in the company, I decided to resign.
Some would say that decision to leave at the moment was kinda daring and foolish, something I would readily admit. I could have fought to stay on actually, but I felt a continued stay would only worsen things for me. I had to do myself a favor at that moment even if it meant jeopardizing those plans I long crafted to make.
As I look back at it now, I’ve come to realize that life sometimes has a way of accelerating those plans, ruining the plan you plotted as you find ways to go about in light of the new state of things. You may not understand it now (in fact, until now, I still don’t understand it) but all you can do is trust that things will be alright.
Screw it! I’ll be a freelancer
With that decision to leave, I felt a sense of relief that finally I can be more active in pursuing those job applications I’ve been eyeing. While I would no longer have the security of regular pay for now, at least I would be more available for the job opportunities that I would encountered. But after a month of sending applications, interviews, and exams left and right, there was still no clear opportunity for me.
Optimistic as I was, I admit that at that moment, I was beginning to feel hopeless and in despair while my saved funds were beginning to dry up. Suicide was far from my mind, but I felt I wanted to give up and just be a worthless bum.
In that state of limbo that I was in, one of the dwindling options that I have was to eventually go full time as a freelancer. So, with little idea how things would go in this new field, I tried my luck first as a part-timer to see how it would go. I signed up for Freelancer.com and Onlinejobs.ph for starters and scoured the listings for possible opportunities.
Luckily, I found work, and eventually got hired, as a researcher on a short-term project for a guy who was doing articles for an online gaming site. And it was the most informal job applications I had. Just an exchange of messages of Skype then I was in.
The weekly pay I was getting from that job was enough to replenish those dwindling funds for my needs as well as my continued job hunting. But at the same time, I was getting comfortable in this new setup I found myself in.
As the frustration continued with those job applications and feeling that the hiring people in those companies I applied to that don’t seem to want to consider my capabilities, I finally snapped and said to myself, “Screw this! I’ve had enough of this frustration!” I finally decided to not care anymore about those companies and decided to shift my focus to online work. Finally, after years of pondering and half-hearted attempts, I finally went all in and be a freelancer.
As that project was nearing its end, I submitted my application to a number of freelance and online job opportunities I could find. Fortunately, I got a job as a writer and researcher for another client. The rest, they say, is history, with countless clients and projects handled to come.
Looking back and looking forward
Looking back at it now, I am amazed that I managed to make it through that challenging point in my life. For the most part at least. As I look back, there are things I wish I could have done differently to smoothen the transition, but nevertheless, I am thankful for those hard lessons I learned along the way.
While I can say I’ve learned a lot from these years of experience and knowledge as a freelancer and have grown quite comfortable in this career path, I admit there are so many things that I need to work on. I still owe it to myself to do better in my career so I can realize the dreams and plans that I have for myself.
Overall, it has been a fruitful experience thus far and I look forward to share about my journey as a freelancer with you all.
To check out my original piece on Medium, you can read it here
